scar(let)

Here I am, in my room after another stressful day at school, after another day of feeling worthless and judged by everyone. Maybe it's all in my head.. “Well what if it isn't all in my head? What if everyone truly judges me and hates me? What if I'm not worth the life I'm living?” I try to keep these thoughts away from my head but I can't, I simply can't... They're too strong to be ignored. I rush my hand to the drawer where I keep my personal things, desperately looking for relief. I pick the raisor and without a second thought I press it in my skin and slowly and painfully slide it. In those two seconds of emptiness my head is full of remorseful thoughts ..”I shouldn't have done it”, “I'm such a freak”,”What's wrong with me?”  My anxiety is pomping and my wrist is stinging. And then, a small scarlet line appears and all my worries and anxieties disappear. I'm relaxed. “I'm fine” I say.. but I know I'm not fine.

fuck, I'm in love.

He’s perfect. His eyes are of a mild warm brown. His hair reminds me of the waves in the ocean. His long arms protect me like I’m the most valuable thing in the whole world, and his smile alone can make me go to the moon and come back, touch the bottom of the deepest ocean, His awkwardness reminds me that I’m not alone in this crazy messed up world and his laugh can make the worst of the days light up. And when he’s close to me and I feel his breath my heart races, and the butterflies I feel when I’m around him turn into wasps. And that’s when I realize that I need to go away. Because I fell in love with him and I can’t. Why? Because he’s perfect.

L-O-V-E

Amor. O amor faz-nos repensar a vida. Pensá-la de uma maneira diferente , com outros olhos, de um ponto de vista diferente, principalmente quando somos adolescentes. Talvez isso seja porque o amor está relacionado com tudo na nossa vida, directa ou indirectamente. Todos os risos e sorrisos e também todas as lágrimas. Toda a felicidade e tristeza e a mudança de humor repentina. Num segundo estamos felizes e depois, 1 palavra, 1 pessoa ou até 1 sentimento, mudam o teu humor. Os adolescentes estão , quero dizer, nós estamos na idade de cometer erros, de nos apaixonarmos, muitas vezes! Estamos na idade de ter um namorado/namorada às escondidas e não querer que ninguém saiba , muito menos os nossos pais. Está na altura de ter amigos, amigas, paixonetas, amores de verão e de todas as outras estações do ano, mas principalmente de verão pois é a época do ano em que parece que o tempo passa mais rápido e que temos mais liberdade.Então vão, vivam, apaixonem-se e experimentem tudo o que o amor vos reserva.